2007-05-16 - 10:43 a.m.
drove to california with my sister and her 3 youngest. 14 hours of her nonstop monologue/ catholic ranting. 12 hours back. its unbelievable how much she talks. we visited the family. drove to annie's. got myself into that missed ocean. felt kelp wrap around my legs. even saw dolphins out there. we went to the town we grew up in and it felt so strange to see familiar faces walking around. its weird how you forget those people are still going about their lives there. it was good to spend time with my sisters again. to see my brother and grandparents. my mother and father. wolfie. i know there is still so much resentment in my family that will probably never resolve. we are distant (like we've always been). i wish everyone would just give it up. my mother seems to think that life would be better if we all lived in a 5 mile radius. i wish she would realize that that's just how life is. that it will never go in reverse. i wish she could see that i'm doing well. that i'm loved. it was a good trip, but i was anxious to get home.
